How I Forgot the Most Important Thing. And How I Remembered It Again.

photo: Okko Pyykkö on flickr

What’s your most important thing? Do you have one?

And if so, do you ever forget it?

I wish I could say I have my priorities in order and never forget what’s most important to me. But that’s not the case.

Claiming that I always remember what’s most important to me would be like saying that although I appear to be a mild-mannered, albeit spastic, Goofball by the name of Z Egloff, at night I don a cape and fly all over the world, rescuing fellow Goofballs from dire and dangerous circumstances.

And while it’s true that I often fly in my dreams, I am not – nor will I ever be – a super hero.

In other words, I’m human. I forget stuff.

Stuff that’s really important.

Case in point:

I recently became a rap star. Really. The super hero stuff isn’t true, but the rapping is for real.

I took a class called Metaphysical Bible as part of my studies at Holmes Institute, and for the final project, our teacher told us to be creative.

Do a rap, I heard a voice say. The voice was in my head and I told it to be quiet. But it wouldn’t stop.

Do a rap, do a rap, do a rap, it said.

Finally, I gave in. I wrote a rap about the evolution of consciousness called Big Bang (Biggity Bang). Melissa wrote a groovy musical interlude and lay down a rhythm track so I could rap over it in class. I dubbed it Metaphysical Nerd Rap (MNR).

photo: Elizabeth Rowley

My fellow students loved it.

Christopher Fritzsche, the music director at the Center for Spiritual Living Santa Rosa, also happened to be around the day of our class. I told him about the rap and, while I performed it for the class, he listened outside the door. When it was over, he burst in the room and said, “What are you doing tomorrow?”

Tomorrow being Sunday. A day that over a thousand people would be coming to Sunday Morning Services at the Center.

No, I didn’t do Big Bang the next day.

Chris was kidding. But he wasn’t kidding about me doing the rap on a Sunday morning.

That actually happened.

It happened on July 1st, 2012 right after Melissa and I got back from our honeymoon. Melissa and Chris and Shelley Fitzsimmons were on backup vocals, with Paul Sarran on bass and Nick Grizzle on drums.

To say it was amazing would be an understatement.

It was incredible and fun and overwhelming and absolutely fabulous. It was one of the best things I’ve ever done.

photo: Lisa Barry

Since that first rap, I’ve written two others. I’m working on a fourth. Melissa is writing the music for each one, and our brothers are helping to produce the tracks. CDs will be forthcoming. Melissa also wrote additional music for Big Bang and with the help of our Holmes classmates, Karen Fry and Sharon Dunn, we’re making it into a music video.

In other words, the rap thang is taking off.

But here’s what happened:

Soon after my rap performance at the Center, I got sick. Not bad sick, just tired sick. In fact, I wrote about it here. My initial conclusion was that I needed to schedule more time off to chill, and this was certainly a valid conclusion.

photo: David Spinks on flickr

But it wasn’t the whole thing.

I knew something else was going on, so I asked for Help. What’s this about? I asked the Divine. Show me what’s going on.

Soon after, I had an appointment with my prayer partner. Like usual, we checked in about what was going on for us and did a joint prayer. In that particular session, I asked for help with my whole sickness/fatigue/reaction-to-the-rap thing.

My prayer partner prayed me up, and I went along my merry way.

And wouldn’t you know it, on the way home, driving in my car, I had a revelation. The answer to my prayers. It went like this:

I’ve been trying to go it alone.

photo: Jason Rogers on flickr

I’d been thinking I had to do this whole rap thing by myself. I mean, sure, I had help from other people, but that wasn’t the problem.

The problem was I’d forgotten about Spirit. I’d forgotten that Spirit is there with me every step of the way.

Indeed, the whole rap thing was Spirit’s idea in the first place.

The minute I realized this, I felt myself relax for the first time in weeks. I immediately felt my energy start to come back.

It was incredible. I felt both relieved and embarrassed. I couldn’t believe I’d forgotten the Key Ingredient. After all, the whole reason I’m in Holmes Institute is because I know and believe that the energy of the Divine is the most important thing in my life.

Except when I forget all about it.

But like I said, I’m not a super hero. I’m just a rap star.

A rap star who owes everything to the Power and Presence that animates and inspires her life.

What’s your most important thing? And how do you remember it?

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14 Responses to How I Forgot the Most Important Thing. And How I Remembered It Again.

  1. Karen September 11, 2012 at 8:27 am #

    My most important thing and the north star by which I ever navigate my ship: “Nothing is more important than feeling [emotionally] good.” — Abraham Hicks

    • Z Egloff September 12, 2012 at 1:38 pm #

      Hi Karen,

      A fabulous North Star. Thank you for this. Love that Abe.

      XOZ

  2. Deirdre September 11, 2012 at 11:46 am #

    Hey Z, be sure to let all your fans know when your new rap CD comes out! I’m sure you’ll have quite a few takers. :)

    • Z Egloff September 12, 2012 at 1:37 pm #

      Hi Deirdre,

      I will definitely let you know when the rap is out. I can’t wait to see the video – it’s in process now!

      XOZ

  3. River September 12, 2012 at 12:44 am #

    1. ZZZZ!!!!!! I have *got* to see this rap! So where is the YouTube???? Sounds fantastic!

    2. I have a gift for you. I just got it today from a friend.
    http://youtu.be/-QiEfD8CJFU. It is day’s like today that help me remember. “A friend is someone who sings your song until you remember it.” – Unknown

    • Z Egloff September 12, 2012 at 1:34 pm #

      Hi River,

      I will let you know when the rap is done. The video is currently in process, and we’re finishing up the audio tracks in the studio. I’m verrrrrrrry excited to get it out there!

      And thanks for the song! Truly great lyrics. Wonderful.

      XOZ

  4. Jill Shinn September 12, 2012 at 11:50 pm #

    Hi Z, my most important thing is being a lightworker—that is, doing my part to raise the vibration of the planet (at least a teensy bit). I’m also a scortpio, which means that sometimes I can be vindictive, thus temporarily lowering the vibration of the planet (a teensy bit). I won’t lie to you—it hurts to contribute to suffering in any form, but we’re human, right? We do the best we can.

    Thanks for the post, and rock on, sister!

    • Z Egloff September 13, 2012 at 1:14 pm #

      Hi Jill,

      Sounds like an awesome Most Important Thing to me. And I appreciate your honesty about your humanness. An honest approach goes a long way. And a sense of humor doesn’t hurt either.

      From my understanding of how this whole vibration thing works, those positive vibrations are a lot more powerful than the negative ones, so I suspect you’re doing way more good than “harm.” Just sayin. ;)

      XOZ

  5. michael frank September 13, 2012 at 8:43 pm #

    okay, I surrender. I have often talked about how my spirit has once again come alive. I cannot do it alone; not at 67 years of age….I will pray and invite more spirits and spirit guides to come forth and then I will never be alone. Sunday, my name will be annouced as a new member. You are all invited :)))

    • Z Egloff September 14, 2012 at 10:34 am #

      Hi Michael,

      It’s true – we’re never alone. And remembering this can make such a huge difference!

      Congratulations on becoming a member of the Center for Spiritual Living. It’s good to have you among us! :)

      XOZ

  6. Tracy Stewart September 13, 2012 at 11:23 pm #

    Hey Z,
    I finally took some time to catch up on your writing adventures. So glad I did. Your blog is great especially with all the pictures interspersed. Totally fun and engaging.
    Hugs,
    Tracy

    • Z Egloff September 14, 2012 at 10:36 am #

      Hi Tracy,

      Great to “see” you here!

      I’m glad you’re enjoying the blogs. And thanks for letting me know that you like the pictures – most of them are from Flickr Creative Commons. They have so many great images there for free – all you have to do is credit the photographer and link back to their photo on the Flickr site.

      Stop by again any time! :)

      XOZ

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